I see good in my future, I'm planning on getting a second job,

going to school, having car payments... and hopefully I won't have to pay rent.

Hopefully...

I have a secret and I won't tell it, not even to you blogger.

I'm sorry if it makes you mad,

but if I were to tell you, and it were to get out... 

I'll just let you know something's going on.

Something that I won't even say outloud,

something I'll regret and something I keep out of my head.

When it's happening it's awesome, when it's over I hate  myself.

I've already said too much.

We'll never be the same,
never feel this way again...
I'd give you anything, but you want pain.
A little water please...
I taste you all over my teeth.
Never again.
Just tonight? Okay...